untuk selalu menyalahkan dan merasa dikalahkan keadaan adalah dosa dan tidak dewasa,tapi itu saya

victims

responding on the tragedy. now in these rush hours of us, when we've just settled down hard times recently and begin to move on slowly at increasing global trust on us, but also being busy inside at national election, trust-gaining agendas such in entertainment and tourism sections, etc. we got loosen up a lot at the heat and so now that it happened again it shakes our land hard.
i noted now that it became blur on how we decide who's victims, criminals and the target. relationships between those roles were also hard to tell. in such incident, we can see that we could got double role after we dived in perspectives. victims are now criminals as well, and vice versa.
acknowledging this, then i found also that there also mass-perspective, which is the way major people react on this situation and it's really controlled by the media. media, digital and paper, which i really believe that its real nature was to be neutral, are now become the judging agency on how we look at things and the worst part is that it could be lie. we could easily led to a bad decision without any consideration on who's victim and criminal.now that's bad bad world people.

ok.

rambbbbling

lalalalalaalalala
selamat malam. selamat sedih, selamat nelangsa, selamat lara. jangan bilang tak tahu apa-apa. wow aing mahiwal wow. eh eh kok gitu sih? loh kok marah? jangan gitu sayang. jangan gitu sayang. muda. umur muda. mau cari apa? apapun bisa jadi manis di dalamnya. semangat kemanamana. melankolia. mau belajar sampe kapan? belajar aja terus sampe pernikahan kelimapuluh. bodoh kok dipiara. jangan gitu sayang. menatap apa yang perlu? apa belakang masih harus diterawang? toh hanya membuat hampa hadir. tak lebih. hampa karena ada asa di dalamnya untuk mengulang, namun tanpa daya. jadi sebenarnya tak ada alasan buat ditahan-tahan. jutaan orang hanya hidup diatas lampaunya. ah tapi orang kan senang sama yang tidak nyata bukan. jadi maksudnya ada odong odong ngegendong buah kedondong.
you fill up my senses, like a night in the forest, like a mountain in springtime, like a walk in the rain, like a storm in the desert, like a sleepy blue ocean, come fill me again. let me drown in your laughter, let me die in your arms, let me lay down beside you, come let me love you, come love me again. ahsusahuahsuashuahsauh. auh. menusuk dan menohok. menjotos dan menggedig dan menampol. kemana jingga pergi?

what a soothing night it is and i feel granted for whatever i will become

AYO

wah lumayan menarik hari ini pemilu jari saya jadi ungu-ungu.
jangan golput, diluar haram atau enggaknya kan tidak menguntungkan. atau dibalik pembelaan anda-anda yang bilang golput itu juga sebuah pilihan ya mangga saja tapi sebelumnya ayo ditilik ayo pilihan seperti apa menjadi golput itu. apalagi yang golput gara-gara malas ke TPS aduh anda-anda pindah saja ke austria biar pemilu online.
kasihani pak RT anda semalam tidak tidur menyortir data.

death and all his friends

michael jackson, tetangga saya, kakak kelas saya.
being so-called young really has nothing to do with distance from death.

duduk dua menit di depan televisi membayar semua rasa lelah dalam putaran balik ke rumah dan menggantikan terik yang mengganas, terima kasih

poster iklan Ikatan Pecinta Reptil Indonesia.super cool

rebuild

however,maybe i should be open by any chance onto any possibilities it offers me unless i'm going to be drowned deeper on these line of tabs of my keyboards. maybe i shouldn't even bother with whom will i be on any occasions rather than losing for not taking chances..or maybe i have to stop being so freakin self-centered immediately.

stop this train

So scared of getting older
I'm only good at being young
So I play the numbers game to find a way to say that life has just begun
Had a talk with my old man
Said help me understand
He said turn 68, you'll renegotiate
Don't stop this train
Don't for a minute change the place you're in
Don't think I couldn't ever understand
I tried my hand
John, honestly we'll never stop this train

ini potongan lagu john mayer, judulnya stop this train. dang good. dengan melodi nya yang sederhana dapet banget sedihnya. it's like all youths for real, on how we attempted to negotiate with life and dealt with others and the fear of getting older and all. also on parenthoods, facing maturity and how hard to keep up such relationships with them as we grown up and to prove it to ourselves and our parents. intinya kayak kita tetep nggak bisa tetep kecil dan ada waktunya untuk kita dewasa dan membuktikan kelayakan kita and dealing with those..how sad.

sedikit catatan

untuk duaribudelapan

sudah dewasa sekarang.kelabu hilang,senyum lebar terkembang,muda terkenang,rangkulan membentang,tangis dibuang.teringat ku melenggang.tawamu masih menggenang.kisah-kisah kita mengawang.kau bukan kawan sembarang.satu masa berselang,ngilu yang tertahan masih menyerang,hampir waktunya pulang!mari terawang,sebentar lagi datang.cangkir kita telah penuh tertuang.saatnya pergi dari sarang,mari meradang,sudahi dulu kesatuan yang terbayang.tenang,kapan-kapan kita ulang.jaga saja imaji kita terang,sentimentalitas itu kita coba ganyang.memang,hampir petang,ini akhir dari perang,ini hasil dari berjuang,reda sudah tabuhan genderang.cobalah sesekali lihat ke belakang,sayang,

kau boleh senang.

kita menang.

saatnya terbang.

bersulang.